It's been one month today since Benjamin was born. I held him for the first and last time. It seems like it took forever for a month to finally pass but at the same time in my mind i relive every moment of those two days as if they just happened. I am coping a lot better then i thought I would. I mean sure I have my moments sometimes they come on so suddenly but from what I'm being told i seem to be doing "well". I pray that it isn't a set up for some kind of huge mental break down months down the road. Only time will tell...
Well I quit my job yesterday. I truly felt like it was the best decision. I will miss it but once i finally made the call I felt this huge weight lifted off of me. I just sense my life going in a new direction. I am looking forward to see where that leads.
Today I will be spending the day with a friend, in hopes to keep my mind in some what of a happy place.
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Happy 1 month birthday Benjamin! I know your having a good time in heaven with all our family that has already passed. I miss you & love you! - Mama
Hi Brandi,
ReplyDeleteI am from the 2nd/3rd trimester loss board over on babycenter and I wanted to come and support your blog. I'm thinking of you and Benjamin today, take care.
Hi Brandi, I came to your blog from BBC, as well. I'm glad you made the decision that you felt was right for you. I hope you continue to take care of yourself. Grieving is a bumpy road, and I'm happy you have something to look forward to.
ReplyDeleteHappy One Month Baby Benjamin!